Conflicted – Chapter 98

With her eyes closed, Xiao You turned around, gripping the comforter tight over her but something extremely bright shines onto her face.

She slowly opened her eyes and immediately flinches.

The sun ray hits her face straight from the glass window, exactly on the spot where the blackout curtain did not cover; well, thanks that to human error for not covering properly the night before.

“Hmmm? Awake?”

With only one eye opened, she looked at Xi Men, who is lying on the spot next to her, looking back at her.

She then uses the comforter to cover her head from the sun.

He smiled, straightening his head to look at the smartphone in his hand.

She removed the comforter slightly, enough for her to see him with one eye, “What time is it now?”

“7.50am,” he replied.

“Urgh…” she groaned. “It’s not even 8am!”

“Didn’t you wake up earlier than this time on weekdays when you were to go to work?” he asked.

“I am not working today,”

He smirked, “Then try to go back to sleep,”

She covered her eye with the comforter.

Silence.

She removed the comforter again and looked at him with one eye again, “You sound like you’ve woken up for a long time…”

“I didn’t sleep last night,” he responded.

“Huh?” she opened her other eye now.

“Or maybe I should say I didn’t manage to sleep much. I think I fell asleep at 6am and woke up an hour later…” he tilts his head.

She lifted her head up, and then runs her hand over her hair. “Insomnia?” she asked.

“More like worried,” he smiled, extending his hand forward and caressed her cheek.

She looked at him with her sleepy eyes.

“Go back to sleep, alright?” he said, pushing his upper body up to lean over and kissed her on her cheek.

Her sleepy eyes blinked, still feeling sluggish. “And you?”

“Continue to wait for you to wake up,” he smiled.

She blinked sleepily again.

She soon moved closer to Xi Men and rests her head on his chest.

“Hmmm?” he looked at her.

“I like sticking with my man,” she murmured.

He smiled; he puts down his phone on the side table and then caressed her cheek as she laid her head on his chest.

Complete silence.

He slowly puts all the strands of hair behind her ear, and then continued to caress her face.

After doing it for a while, he lifted his head to check her face out, just wanted to know if she is asleep.

“I am not asleep,” she said without opening her eyes.

She knew he lifted his head up to look at her, purely based on the muscles on his chest had moved.

He smirked, rested his head down on the pillow, “I was wondering if you can sleep like that?”

“I don’t want to continue sleeping anymore since you can’t sleep,” she said.

“I am fine if you want to sleep. I know you are very comfortable on the bed,” he said.

She smiled, lifting her head up to face him but her eyes are closed. “It is okay. I can sleep later,”

He smiled, “Well… if you are not going to sleep anymore…”

Not going to sleep anymore?

‘Does he mean… ‘that’?’ she thought to herself. ‘Since that’s what he did in the ‘2 days’ in Macau,’

“Let’s go for breakfast,” he said.

‘So it is,’ she thought to herself.

“Breakfast?” one of her eyes opened, “You can be more straightforward to say you wanna make love, you know?”

His smile fades, and now he stares at her. “Make love?”

“No?” she asked, her other eye opened now as looked at his surprised face.

Oh uh.

“Oops. Then I am sorry for feeding you with that thought,” she closed her eyes and then dives straight to the pillow in embarrassment.

He instantly chuckles, “That is such a brilliant idea, but I mean… real food,”

She lifted her head up and looked at him, “Food? As in, the real food kind of breakfast?”

He smiled as to how the same word can bring different meaning for both of them. “Yes. Because I didn’t sleep well the whole night, my stomach feels sour…”

“Oh! Okay! Okay! We’ll go for breakfast. Let me get ready!” she sits up.

“Don’t worry. We are not going anywhere far. The breakfast place is just downstairs. Our hotel suite comes with breakfast so you don’t have to rush,” he said.

“Okay!” but she still jumps down from the bed hurriedly to go to the bathroom.

*****

“Is the bacon delicious?” Xiao You asked as Xi Men is already munching the piece of bacon.

“Yeah. It is good,” Xi Men said and swallowed the food in his mouth, before he reached for the cup of coffee.

“I thought you said your stomach feels sour, and you are having coffee?” she asked.

“If you notice, my first item of food was porridge. Had a small bowl of it, followed by other food… so I already got everything covered before taking my first sip of coffee now, baby,” he smiled and then takes the first sip after he is done with his words.

Well, he did eat a lot of food prior to having his first sip of coffee.

“Let’s just say you can’t live without coffee,” she said, lifting her cup of coffee up for a sip now.

He smirks, putting the cup of coffee down on the saucer. “Same goes with you,”

“I don’t have history of stomach ulcer,” she puts down her cup of coffee.

“Don’t worry about me. I know how to take care of myself, and I know when to stop,” he smiled, poking the fork into his scrambled egg.

She smiled, and she picked up a shrimp dim sum, before she puts it into her mouth.

Plenty of things to eat from the buffet spread.

She looked at him eating.

‘It all ends at 10am…’

‘And he pretended he is okay…’

She slowed down in munching her food.

And there is something she wants to ask…

“Xi Men,” she called.

“Hmmm?” Xi Men lifted his head up and looked at her.

“I was wondering…”

“About?” Xi Men asked, as he munches his food.

She swallowed the lump in her throat, “If one day…”

He munches his food slowly, waiting for her to continue.

“You meet Juliana again…”

*Paused munching.

He stares straight at Xiao You.

She looked at him, scanning his facial expression.

He is completely taken aback to hear that name.

They have not talked about her for a while.

“Do you think you could treat her as a friend?” she asked.

He continued staring at her in shock.

But soon after, he swallowed the food in his mouth entirely. “Huh?” he belatedly responded to her.

“I mean…” Xiao You bites her lower lip now. “Since she is your ex-wife…”

He eyes her warily; he isn’t sure why she would bring up about his ex-wife all of a sudden.

“Yeah…?” he asked. “What… what about her?”

He was too shocked when he heard her mentioning Juliana out of nowhere, so he didn’t hear her question.

“How will you react around her… if you see her again?” Xiao You asked.

He blinked numerous times. “Umm… why… why the sudden?”

“I am curious,” she said. “Sometimes there are things just… running in mind… once in a while,”

He swallowed the lump in his throat.

“Could you treat her as a friend?” Xiao You asked.

Xi Men looked at her. “Friend?”

Xiao You nodded, “Yeah,”

His gaze lowered slightly, “I don’t know. After what I have put her through… I don’t think I deserve to be her friend,”

“Deserve to be her friend? That’s not what I am expecting to hear,” Xiao You said. “I want to know if you could treat her as a friend, not from her perspective whether you deserve to be her friend or not,”

Silence.

“Maybe. Depending on how she is now… if things are better for her…” he suddenly exhaled his deep breath. “I don’t know,”

She looked at him.

“I don’t know how to explain,” he said.

“Try your best to,” she said, “Because I really want to know,”

He swallowed the lump in his throat again. “Juliana had a tough life when she was with me,”

Xiao You looked at Xi Men.

“Or rather… a bitter life; which she treated it as perfect for her, just because she loves me,” Xi Men said. “Juliana gets everything; materials and status but my love. She finds contentment in what I could give her even though it is just a small attention and treated it as affection from me,” he adds, and then briefly lowered his head to look at his food, and the moment he lifted his head up, he says, “Well, my point being is… I hope she knew that everything she had gotten from me could have been better if she is with someone else, and I hope she met someone who would really love her, and showed her what loves is and how it truly feels,” he smirked, looking at Xiao You, and the smirk turns to a smile, “Just like how I feel with you,”

Xiao You returns the faint smile to Xi Men upon seeing his smile.

“Xiao You, I don’t think it is right for me to treat her as a friend after all that had happened. But if her life is better and happier now, and that she tells me that she can, and will treat me as a friend again after what she and I have been thru; then only I can treat her as a friend,” Xi Men explained.

Xiao You’s faint smile fades, and then she ends up biting her lower lip.

“I think that’s more appropriate for me to do,” he adds.

She lowered her head and then she nodded, “I understand,”

Xi Men then tilts his head, “Why would you think about this all of a sudden?”

She lifted her head and looked at him, “Hmmm?”

“Why all of a sudden?” he asked again.

“I have just told you, right? I am curious,” she answers. “Somehow, even if I am not curious, it is a question that I will ask you, sooner or later,”

Still tilting his head, his eyes lowered for a few seconds.

“I am going to get some more coffee,” she rose to her feet.

Xi Men lifted his eyes up and looked at her.

“Do you want anything from the buffet table? I can grab for you,” she said.

His eyes went to the plate in front of him, “Not for now. Let me finish the scrambled eggs first,” he said, taking his fork up.

“Okay,” she smiled and then walked away.

*****

Right after they returned to their suite after their breakfast, he kisses her once the door closes.

History repeats itself; whenever he makes a move on her, she couldn’t resist him.

“Didn’t you mention about making love before breakfast this morning? That’s what plastered in my mind since then,” he claimed.

Fabrics begin coming off from them, starting from the entrance of the suite, trailing all the way to the bed.

Just kissing him sends burning desire in her to be one with him.

And not to mention, his good hands blend with marvelous touching skill on her skin and flesh made her wanting him even more.

He did not left an inch of her skin untouched.

He made sure she felt good.

When he took her, she gripped onto the comforter, but occasionally holds onto his arm.

Her eyes closed, her head pulled back as the sensation he is giving her drives her to the wall.

His hand caressed her cheek, and then travels down to her breast, and then to her curvy waist.

He breathes with his mouth; his lips had turned red.

Apart from satisfying her, she gives him pleasures too.

He watches her facial expressions and listened to the sounds she made.

He slows down, lowering his upper body and looked at her face closely.

He is obviously in full control.

She slowly opened her eyes and looked at him.

He caressed her cheek, and then to her jaw.

He treasured her so much.

He leaned over and captured her lips, kissing her passionately.

=====

He caressed her jaw.

That prompted Xiao You to open her eyes, turned her head to the left and looked at him, who is lying on his side comfortably on the bed with his hand supporting his head, looking back at her.

Recollection mode: Exit

She is currently lying on her back on the bed, recollecting on the earlier intense love making session… and well, got cut off halfway by him.

The session was so awesome that it is worth recalling, over and over again.

Xi Men smiled at her, “Are you tired or something?” he asked.

She smiled, “No, I am okay. I am just lazy to move,” she said. She can’t be telling him she is thinking about their intimacy, right?

He chuckled. “Same with me. We can rest for a while,” he said. “We have time until check out,”

Check out.

That’s 12pm.

She looked at him, and he smiled at her, prompting her to smile too.

She then reached for the smartphone on the side table and clicked on it to check the time.

9.52am.

Xi Men happened to glance over the time on her smartphone, and is instantly surprised that it is already 9.52am.

All of a sudden, there’s only 8 minutes left?

Where did all the time go?

They woke up slightly before 8am, heads for breakfast, come back to the room about an hour later, have passionate lovemaking session, and even showered.

That’s plenty of things done in 2 hours.

But it’s so close to their 10am deadline now.

Xi Men’s eyes lowered slightly, feeling devastated to see the time.

There’s only 8 minutes left for both of them.

“I’ve told you 24 hours are short,”

Xiao You turned and looked at Xi Men.

Xi Men could only smile bitterly at her. “It’s only 8 minutes left to 10am,”

“7 minutes,” she corrected him, clicking onto the phone to show him the time.

9.53am.

It felt like a huge blow to him, despite it is only one minute.

He felt crushed by it.

She saw the look on his face.

She slowly reached for his hand and grips it, “Xi Men,” she called. “Do you have anything you want to say or tell me? Do it now, before the clock hits 10am,”

He looked at her, sadness filled him. “I don’t want to lose you, Xiao You,”

She swallowed the lump in her throat.

“I’ve done all I could in the last 24 hours, hoping to be able to make you stay,” he said, tears begin to form in his eyes. “Though I wouldn’t deny that at the back of my mind, I am doing them to win you and to get your acceptance too; but right now, I will be far more than glad if those things are able to make you stay; and that’s the most important thing to me now,”

She clenched her teeth upon hearing his words.

He sniffed. “The sad thing is, I have promised that I have to let you go when the 3 days end; so I can’t hold you back anymore,”

She swallowed another lump in her throat.

“I don’t know what’s going to happen after this,” he said, looking at her. “But there is one thing you should always remember, Xiao You,”

She looked at him.

“You are my woman. Now and forever,”

Her tears formed upon hearing that.

“I have been in hell without you in my life. I don’t want to go thru those days again. And I am not going to do that to myself anymore. So if you leave me, I will look for you. I will definitely look for you. I will go anywhere in the world to look for you. And this time, I will stay by your side, waiting for you. Even if you don’t want to be with me, I will still stay there. There is no one else that I want to be with anymore other than you,” he caressed her cheek again. “Because I really, really love you,”

A tear fell sideways from her eye to the side of her cheek (since she is lying down on the bed).

He looked at her closely; scanning her facial feature, probably the last time he’ll ever see it; as his thumb brushed the fallen tear away, while his own tears fell.

She sniffed, as she looked at his face at this proximity.

So handsome.

Xiao You raised her hand up and wiped his tears from his cheeks.

After looking at her intently for a long time in silence, Xi Men swallowed the bitter lump in his throat to contain his sadness, and then leaned close to her lips, kissing her for one last time.

She kissed him back.

She could feel his passion, love and affection from the kiss.

She could feel his longing for her.

It is a deep, passionate kiss; and a long one.

But all things have to come to an end.

She gently breaks off the kiss, and the moment their lips parted…

“Xiao You, I love you,” Xi Men said, and slowly pulled his head back slightly to get a good look on her face, and looked straight into Xiao You’s eyes.

Xiao You looked at Xi Men, swallowing the lump in her throat, and then she grits her teeth.

She lowered her gaze all of a sudden and then she sits up.

He moved back since she is sitting up.

Suddenly, she reached for her phone.

He quickly grabbed her hand, stopping her from checking the time, but she twists her hand off from his grip and checked the time.

9.59am.

And…

No. Wait. It is 10am now. The clock has just turned 10am.

He saw the time on her smartphone; hot blood rushed to his head.

It is over now.

24 hours are gone.

‘3 days’ is over. It is all over now.

He gasped for air for a moment, feeling extremely devastated that it’s over.

She lifted her eyes up and looked at him.

Xi Men lifted his eyes up and looked at her too, exchanging gazes with her.

They are no longer bounded by the ‘3 days’ rule anymore.

Anything she say or decided now will not fall within the ‘3 days’ anymore.

Previously at the end of the 48 hours, he wanted her to say ‘I love you too’ to accept him, but this time he is no longer expecting it. He knew she will never respond to it.

Right now he just wants to hear her say she will stay.

He looked at her.

Will she stay?

Without saying anything, he just looked at her…

Just… waiting.

Waiting for her to say… she’ll stay.

Complete silence.

Seeing how she looked back at him along with her facial expressions, he knew.

He failed.

He felt so damn heartbroken now.

Xi Men then lowered his eyes, breaking off their locked gaze.

He slowly pulled (his body) back and turned his head away in sadness and disappointment.

He couldn’t hide how terrible he feels right now.

And that is when Xiao You grabbed his arm, halting him.

He looked at her grip on his hand, before he looked at her, meeting her in her eyes.

“I love you too,”


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8 thoughts on “Conflicted – Chapter 98

  1. OH…..Ann…. keep us waiting
    Would XY accept XM ?, wonder what is the conversation between XY & Juliana ?
    update soon……

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