I Still… – Chapter 31

Xi Men looked at the time on his wristwatch.


“It is 6am already,” he murmured.

He had been sleeping on and off for the past 3 hours on the bench, outside of Emily’s ward.

First being it isn’t a comfortable place for him to sleep well.

Second point is that he felt bothered by the emotional conversation he had with Xiao You, that it basically lingered in his mind.

He took a deep breath as he rose to his feet.

He quietly opens the door to Emily’s ward and peeked at Xiao You sleeping on the chair next to Emily’s bed, again.

His gaze went to the couch he had earlier sat on, where he left so that Xiao You will go over and sleep on.

Well, she didn’t.

Sighing, he took a step back and then closed the door in front of him quietly. (*he didn’t enter the room)

He then heads to the counter where the nurses are sitting at.

“Hi,” he said as he stood at the counter.

All the nurses look at Xi Men.

“I want to know… umm… will my daughter be discharged within 2 hours?” Xi Men asked.



*Bzz. (vibration)

*Head lifted.

Sunlight shines straight to her face.

Xiao You struggles to open her eyes.


*Raising her hand up to protect the blinding light from shining to her eyes.

Xiao You could only open her left eye and she briefly scoops the smartphone up from the top of the cabinet.

She picked up the call and puts the phone on her ear.

Xiao You: Hello, mom…

Xiao You’s mom: I heard Emily is in the hospital. Is that true?

Xiao You’s eyes popped open.

Oh gosh.

She forgot to inform her parents about that.

Mom: Xiao You, is that true?

Xiao You: Umm… mom, yes…

Mom: My gosh! Why didn’t you tell me my granddaughter has been admitted to the hospital?!

Xiao You: Mom, don’t worry. Everything is alright.

Mom: What do you mean it is alright? She is in the hospital! Which hospital is this? I am coming now!

Xiao You: Mom, you don’t have to. Emily is going to be discharged today.

Mom: Really?

Xiao You: Yes, though I don’t know what time yet. Doctor said she will be discharged today.

Mom: She is really alright?

Xiao You: Yes, mom. She is okay. Just fever.

Mom: Have you been staying in the hospital taking care of Emily the whole night?

Xiao You: Yes, I am.

Mom: Alone?


Mom: On your own I supposed?

Xiao You: No, with Xi Men.

Mom: I see.

Xiao You: Mom, how did you found out Emily is in the hospital?

CLACK. (door open)

Mom: San Chai called me and informed me this morning.

Xiao You: Oh.

Mom: Anyway, if you said Emily is okay and going to be discharged today, then I won’t be going to the hospital.

Xiao You: Yeah, you don’t need to.

Mom: Okay, bye Xiao You.

Xiao You: Bye mom.

Xiao You lowered her phone and hung up the call.

PAK. (door close)

Xiao You immediately turned her head to look at the door, and seeing Xi Men is standing in front of the door. She did not hear him opening the door, and only heard he closes the door and he is already in the room. She looked at him from top to bottom.

He looked fresh. And he had changed his clothes. Casual wear.

He must have gone home.

“Hi,” he said.

Without replying to him, she returned her gaze to her phone, and then puts the phone on the cabinet.

Her reaction is not unknown of.

He lowered his head slightly and took a few steps and walked to the bed. “Your mom called?” Xi Men asked, still trying to start a conversation.

“Yeah,” Xiao You said.

“Is there anything happened to your mom?”

“No. She’s just asking about Emily,”

“Oh,” he said. “Umm… you haven’t gone home at all last night, so… I brought you some clean change,”

Xiao You turned her head and looked at him, and he extends two paper bags at her; one moderate-sized and one small size.

She took the bags from him and she looked into them.

The small bag contains toiletries, and the moderate sized bag contains a face towel, clothes and lingerie.


After looking at it again, she realized these are hers. From her wardrobe.

Wardrobe in penthouse.

“You went to the penthouse,” she said.

“Yeah,” he said. “To pack your stuffs for you,”

“Including my lingerie,” she said.

“It’s not like I have never seen or touch them before,”

She gazes at him.

He looked back at her.

There is nothing wrong with what he had said.

As her husband and even before they got married, he had indeed seen tremendous of that; whether it is on her, removed from her, or bought for her.

Maybe she finds it awkward to talk or hear this from him.

She lowered her head and gazes into the bag again.

“Did you happen to forget Emily’s clothes?” she asked.

His eyes widened.

“Ah crap,” he lifted his head up and slaps his forehead.

Xiao You smirked. “It is okay. She can wear yesterday’s clothes again since it is just for a while,” she puts the bags down on the cabinet.

“I am sorry,” he said.

“It isn’t a big issue. Just clothes. I didn’t expect you will do any of these in the first place,” she said. “So it surprises me to see you actually prepare my set of clothes, and even toiletries,”

He smiled lightly. “I hope the face towel is good enough for you to freshen up or shower,”

“Yeah, it will be. Thanks a lot,” she said.

“No problem,” he said, taking his seat on the couch.

Xiao You looked at Emily, who is sleeping soundly on the bed.

“I hope Emily is better now,” he said.

“I hope so too. Just have to wait for the doctor to come,”

“His shift starts at 8.30am. So he will come to the room after that,”

Xiao You turned her head to look at Xi Men. “How on earth do you know about his working hours?”

“I asked before I leave for home. Or rather, the nurse told me Dr. Wu’s shift when I asked her if Emily will be discharging at 8am,” Xi Men said. “Because I needed time to go home to shower, and then go to the penthouse to pack your things. I didn’t want to pack and then come to the hospital to find Emily has been discharged and both of you had gone home,”

“Oh,” Xiao You said, turning her head back to Emily.

“Xiao You, if you want to freshen up, you can go ahead. I’ll be here,” Xi Men said.

Xiao You didn’t say anything as she looked at Emily.

Xi Men lowered his head down slightly.

He guesses that, when the topic is about Emily, Xiao You is willing to talk about it, but if the topic has shifted, Xiao You would choose not to say anything.

Even something as minor as asking her to freshen up.

Xiao You suddenly grabbed the bags and she stood up. “It will be better that I freshen up now than later when the doctor came,”

Xi Men looked at her.

“Attend to Emily if she wakes up,” Xiao You said, and then she looked at him.

“I will,” he nodded.

Xiao You nods back briefly and then she headed to the washroom.

He knew the conversation last night is very emotional and hurtful, but seeing that she is willing to talk to him although it is about Emily, he hopes she feels better.

And won’t hate him as much.


As soon as Xiao You emerges from the washroom wearing the set of clothes Xi Men brought for her, she looked at Xi Men sitting on the chair next to the bed, looking back at her.

“Hi mommy,” Emily called and waved at Xiao You.

Xiao You turned her head to look at Emily and smiled. “Morning sweetie, how are you feeling?”

“Better than yesterday, mommy,”

“That is good to hear,” Xiao You smiled.

“It is good that you freshened up. You don’t look as tired anymore,” Xi Men said.

Xiao You’s smile fades. “I know. Thank you,” she said, putting the bags down.

CLACK. (door open)

Both Xi Men and Xiao You turned their heads to look at the door, and looked at a doctor entering the room with a nurse.

“Good morning Mr. Xi Men, Mrs. Xi Men,”

“Good morning Dr. Wu,” Xi Men and Xiao You replied.

Xi Men gazes over to Xiao You after the respond; since she has been addressed as Mrs. Xi Men, but she does not seem to be bothered by it.

“I am coming over to check Emily’s condition and temperature,” Dr. Wu smiled, and then he shifts his gaze to Emily, and only now that he realized Emily had already woken up. “Oh, hi Emily,”

“Hello, Dr. Wu,” Emily waved at him.

“How are you feeling now, Emily?” Dr. Wu asked, walking to her.

Both Xi Men and Xiao You moved away slightly to give way for Dr. Wu and the nurse to attend to Emily. They stood at a side and looked on.

And then soon they realized that they are standing next to each other.

Xi Men gazes towards her direction.

Xiao You steal glances to his direction.

They then straightened their heads at the same time and looked at Dr. Wu talking to Emily with a smile on his face (Dr. Wu).

“Alright, then you’ll rest at home,” Dr. Wu said at Emily and then patted her head. He turned and looked at Xi Men and Xiao You who are looking at him. “Mr. and Mrs. Xi Men,”

“Yes, Dr. Wu?” Xiao You answered.

“Emily still has mild fever but she can be discharged and rest at home,” Dr. Wu said. “But she still needs to eat medicines and finish the course,”

“Sure, Dr. Wu,” Xiao You said.

“Medicine? Still?” Emily asked.

“Yes, Emily. You won’t get better if you don’t eat and finish the medicines,” Dr. Wu said, looking at Emily.

Emily pouted.

“Be a good girl, alright?” Dr. Wu pats her head again. “Because medicine is for sick ones like Emily. If Emily doesn’t eat the medicine, you won’t get better and the only way to get better will be poking you with needles and you know, that’s gonna be painful… like, really painful,”

“AH! I don’t want! I’ll be a good girl and eat medicine…” Emily pouts.

Xi Men and Xiao You chuckled at the same time, and then they stopped at the same time again when they heard the other party laughed.

“Now, that’s a good girl,” Dr. Wu smiled at Emily. He then turned to look at Xi Men and Xiao You. “Mr. Xi Men, you can start processing Emily’s discharge papers,”

“Sure, thank you, Dr. Wu,” Xi Men said.

“Thank you, Dr. Wu,” Xiao You said too.

Dr. Wu and the nurse left the room.

“I’ll go and settle Emily’s discharge papers, so, you can…”

“I’ll change her clothes,” Xiao You said, interrupting Xi Men.

Finding there is no need to continue his words, he just nodded briefly and he walked out from the room.

“Come Emily, let’s change,” Xiao You said, pulling the drawer open to get Emily’s clothes.

“Alright, mommy,” Emily kicks the blanket away.

Xiao You then sits down by the bed, wanting to change Emily’s clothes. Upon seeing her phone, “Ah. I need to call Jin to come and get us,” Xiao You said, retrieving her phone. “He needs time to come,”

“Okay, mommy,”

After finding Jin’s name in the phone’s contacts, she pressed the ‘call’ button and puts the phone on speakerphone, putting it down on the cabinet again while her hands are required to dress Emily.

A couple of rings later, Jin picked up the phone.

Jin: Good morning, ma’am.

Xiao You: Good morning, Jin. Doctor…

Emily (interrupt): Hi uncle Jin!

Jin: Oh, hello, young miss! How are you feeling?

Emily: Better now. Thank you! I am coming home.

Jin: That’s great.

Xiao You (smiled): Jin, doctor has cleared Emily and she is ready to go home now. Can you come and pick us up now?

Jin: Pick you and young miss up?

Xiao You frowned at what Jin had uttered, as he sounded surprise at that request, and also, his reaction is as though there is someone else going to pick them up.

Xiao You: Yeah. Of course. Who else would if not you?

Jin: Master said he will be sending you and young miss home.

Xiao You’s eyes widened up: Xi Men?

Jin: Yes.

Xiao You: He said that?

Jin: Yes. Butler Pan said that is what master said when he came to penthouse more than an hour ago.

Xiao You: Umm. Oh. Umm…

Jin: Umm… is master… not there?

Xiao You: Err… he… he is here. I mean, out. Err… I mean… (she scratches her head) not in the room.

Jin: Umm…

Xiao You: Umm… (bites her lower lip) nevermind Jin. I’ll call you again if… if I need you.

Jin: Sure, ma’am. See you at home.

Xiao You (smiled bitterly): Sure, see you at home.

Xiao You then pressed a button to hang up the call.

CLACK. (door open)

Xiao You and Emily lifted their heads up and looked at the door.

“Papers done,” Xi Men said, entering the room and closing the door behind him.

“That’s fast,” Xiao You said.

“Yeah. Nobody is discharging this early so… I get to settle it fast,”


“So… ready to go?” Xi Men asked.

“Not yet, daddy! Mommy, you haven’t zipped my dress!” Emily said, turning around and showed her back to Xiao You.

“Oh!” Xiao You said, quickly zipped Emily’s dress.

Xi Men smiled.

“I called Jin,” Xiao You said, grabbing her phone on the cabinet and then puts it into her handbag.

Though not looking at him, he knew she is talking to him. “I am fetching you home,” he said.

“He told me that too,” Xiao You said. “Because that is what you told Butler Pan,”

Xi Men smirked. “Yeah,”

“You know you don’t have to do that. I can ask Jin to fetch,”

“I am here anyway,” he said, and he then extends his hand to grab the two paper bags, although it belongs to Xiao You. “So, can we go now?”

“Yes, daddy!”


Xiao You clasped her hands together as she sat at the passenger seat next to Xi Men who is on the driving seat of his Mazda.

“Thank you for sending us home,” Xiao You said, looking out of the car.

Xi Men glanced over to Xiao You, and seeing she isn’t looking at him, he returned his gaze to the road. “Don’t worry about it. I have planned to drive you and Emily home anyway,”

“Okay,” she said.

He swallowed the lump on his throat. He lifted his eyes up to look at the back mirror, and looked at Emily who is sitting quietly at the back.

“You don’t wear like that to go to work,” she said.

He glanced over to Xiao You again, and again, she is still looking straight.

Although she isn’t looking at him now, he knew she saw what he wore. At least in the hospital.

He looked at what he is wearing briefly before he returned his gaze to the road. “I… I am not going to work today,”

“Kinda figured,” she said. “And I thought you wouldn’t wear that shirt anymore,”



“So, honey, how is your shopping today with the ladies?” Xi Men asked, sitting down next to Xiao You on the bed.

“It is just alright…” Xiao You said gloomily.

“Hmmm… sounds like you are disappointed with it,”

“Saw some nice clothes but don’t have my size. Saw nice shoes but colors available in stock are not interesting,” she said.

“Well, shop again sometime soon then,” he smiled.

“Oh well, what to do,” she said, tilting her head. “AH, I bought you something,” she straightened her head now and then gets down from the bed.

“Bought me something? You never failed to buy me something from your shopping trip!” he laughed.

“That means I care about you and I still remember you when I shop!” Xiao You said, taking a paper bag out from the drawer and then heads back to the bed.

He laughed. “So, what did you get me this time? A tie?”


“A shirt?”

“Ah, how come you can guess that?! It is just your second guess!”

He laughed. “Honey, you get me shirts all the time,”

She is surprised. “All the time?”

“Like, 80%?”

She glances to the wardrobe and then start thinking if he is right… “Urgh…” she then pouted. “You are right. I always get you shirts. Looks like I need to be more creative,”

“Hmmm… you mean, getting me belts, or socks, or…?”

She glared at him.

He laughed.

“I know, I know. I buy those too,” she said, passing the paper bag to him.

“It is okay, honey. I love whatever you buy for me,” he leaned and kissed her cheek. “So, what color of the shirt this…” he looked into the bag, “…time,” and he took a black shirt out.

“Black,” she replied to the obvious question, as he saw it now too.

“This is not the normal type of formal shirt I wear to work,” he looked at the shirt.

“It is a wool shirt, more towards casual wear,” she extends her hand and touched the material. “You can wear to go out,”

“Oh,” he said, looking at the shirt. “Hmmm…”

“Sounds like you don’t like it?”

“Not that but… I don’t know how I will look like in a wool shirt…”

“Trust me. It will fit you. You will look the handsomest in the world,”

He laughed. “Really?”

“Yes, trust me. This will definitely look good on you,” she smiled.

“Alright. I trust you. Thank you darling,” he leaned over and kissed her on her lips.

And she is right.

This shirt looks really good on Xi Men, and he loves wearing it; becoming one of his favorite shirts.

*Flashback ended.


Xi Men lowered his head down to look at his clothes again. “This shirt looks good on me,”

“I know,”

“And it is my favorite shirt,”


Even though they have separated, it doesn’t mean his favorite things will be disliked.

“Yes,” he replied.

“I see,”

“Thanks for buying it,” he said.

She just smirked.

Although he doesn’t love her anymore but he still appreciates and loves the things she gave him.

He remembered every single thing she gave him and to him, those will be his favorite things.

Including this shirt.

And they still are.

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8 thoughts on “I Still… – Chapter 31

  1. hmm.. u appreciate and love everything she gave u?? is that possible when u no longer love her. u will no longer receive any gift or anything from her again..

  2. Really you’re not love her anymore, ximen?…i think emily sick its good, they can sit together and talk, hope xm realize something from emotional conversation they have……

  3. That is surprisingly a calm update. Will XM spend time with them for the day? What are you up to again annie? Will Raymond go to the penthouse or studio? Gawwwd its making me so curious. Hehe

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